such a beautiful disaster;
Thursday, August 17, 2006
hhaha.. it's weejian's bday today!! his gf best liao.. surprise bday party for him at hardrock cafe and gather everyone of us there, me, kaihong, da quan, jeff, jason, kervin, hamster, kenneth, hocksoon and weiqi .. =) quite a superb effort.. and a bday from fullerton hotel.. yummy yummy chocolate fudge =) nt my favourite anyway.. omg! the steak was nice.. medium well =) my all time favourite but the vegetables sux to the max..
haha we crap alot of super jokes, wad r gear = racing gear.. wad tony the president zzz.. all sort of childhood riddles =) and then we went egames dota. Sian.. 2 more days to itlg exams.. wad a pua sian.! i haven study much and me and joyce discussing about the bbq after the exam instead of discussing the ITLG exams! .. omg can anyone pls wake me up? =) k lar.. dun haf the mood to blog so much.. take care all my friends and good luck =)
the origin.9:24 AM
Monday, August 14, 2006
hais.. today really not in the mood for anythin.. i already let go everything.. nth to sae already..I WAKE UP LIAOS.. heheh xinzi, yilee, zhanhong, dq, wl and spencer!!! =) feel so happy .. bt this happiness does not last long till my fren jio me go play dota.. FUCK LAG.. and kervin keep kp me... kp me from the game start till the game ended.. farking hell how will i noe anythin.. i haf 2 second of delay.. by the time i noe.. my character is dead and i haf to bear the lag and continue to play and listen to him keep nagging and scolding me.. !! totally turn off.. if wanna play owning den go play wif those wcg gd clan.. go join them lar.. dun find fren play.. i just play it for fun.. regardless of winning and lousing.. and i keep getting fuck in the game.. is not i keep dying.. i am lag and i also dunno wad i am playing.. come on lors.. waste my time and MY MOOD is really beri FUCK up.. haiya.. dunno how to play wif them.. game tio fuck up.. life tio fuck up.. project also tio fuck up.. hais.. pls enlighten me someone =(
the origin.10:09 AM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
wad a day.. movie and then followed by mahjong at my grandma hse.. haha watch a movie wif my fren.. nt beri nice bt at least haf the company.. again tio last min pang seh.. the hurt is nt as bad as the times happen be4.. really get used to it.. even if she called and tell me dat she cannot make it .. "hmm .. expected.. how much sweet talk before hand in the end .. it's really nth" as the frequency increases.. it really become numb! the feeling is really numb.. a body without a soul.. haha best describe me right at the moment.. sometime raising value is one thing, everyone has a value.. bt there is a limit to anything.. quite a foolish of me to keep hanging on.. waitin for the impossible.. xinzi u are right, " gd luck to me until i wake up " .. ya guess i realli nid to wake up.. Spencer " yihong i dunno whether u are a love idiot or u are really brainless " .. ya maybe at this moment i am still foolish.. bt tell u guys.. wad i finally realise is.. i am really tired! tired of competing, contributing 150%.. and the other party who give u hope, bt she is only contributing 5% and raising her value like european share.. everyday top volume .. top gainer.. raise at least 1 bucks per day.. haha to us we tink 1 buck beri little, to the shares.. hahaha.. wanan noe more? go teletext, channel 5 , press 306 and u can check =)
the origin.7:24 AM
Friday, August 11, 2006
hmm .. nice outing today.. mache followed by esplanade walk.. hahas.. running fast along the suntec to marina area isn't dat fun at all.. i din even get to eat full and rush to get the firework and gave her a vid call since she wanna see.. bt eventually the firework finish and i end up nth.. most sian is she sae abt minus pt.. getting tired plus pt and minus pt.. competiting wif other guys.. which she mention everyone treat her so gd somemore.. i really dunno wad can i do.. maybe i tink let her with those guys is really a better choice.. 2 years of knowing her.. i tink wadeva i did is really to the max .. i really cannot tink of anythin to do to make her fancy during this 2 wks.. maybe i tink i will just do nth? .. or maybe i go for the wrong ger? .. xinzi maybe u are rite.. i told u i can tahan i can hold bt u sae no matter how hard u perservere .. u contribute 120% she contribute 10% is still a endless chase.. she keep 10km/h i also nid to chase 10km/h and if there are ppl running along wif me.. i nid to compete with them.. wad for make myself so worthless? a piece of jade degrade to a small piece of dirt? .. maybe dat's wad called love is blind.. maybe my value really worthless? .. or maybe the right one is nt dere yet to realise my existence.. ? i wonder...... i really dun bother much nowaday.. yihong is yihong.. sing well, talk well, treat her well.. end up is just a one person effort.. if she dun appreciate.. yihong is just another ordinary yihong.....
the origin.11:04 AM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
hais.. my ex called me just now.. and told me i neglect her? omg .. duno wad haf i done wrong again.. she told me wad ask me go kbox nowaday i like nt free.. call me chat " xing shi " i also like bo chap much.. come on! i haf a ger who i like .. can i still act like as if we are tgt.. gif u all my time? wad if the ger i like she noe i was chatting/consoling my EX? omg she will just think haiya.. yihong forever gers around?.. no way! i gonna put a stop to all this nonsense.. Wad i told my EX is dat i will still treat her as fren, my fren is yes i will chat wif u bt not calling u always and nt everytime u call i not free i also entertain u! .. no more buying breakfsat or go ur hse eat breakfast wif u in the morning, not when u are free u ask me come out i will go! come on lors.. wad if the ger i like see i am wif a ger going out? dating? .. i dun wish to be called a flirt! i will still treat ger i like be4 as fren no matter of we are finish or she reject me etc, but i must haf my own image as well.. if we are nt tgt den dun expect me to treat u gd, i cannot possibily treat every gers dat well.. den the ger i liek where gt security, i dun care if she gt go out wif other guys or wad.. me, myself haf to be responsible for my own actions.
ya tonite i confess everything to her.. yes she told me she sae gif her some time mean still gt chance, ya i agree dat to a certain extend. if she really thinks that wadeva nice things i said is all about sweet talk? i really haf nth to sae anymore coz all those are really from the bottom of my heart! i mean dat to every guys, the ger he like is always the most beautiful.. any other ger is just nth in the eyes of their. She told me gif her time again.. hais izt a prolong of rejection period? or a closer step toward a beginning of me & her? i wonders...
the origin.8:30 AM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
hais.. wad a zz national day performance.. perform for the sake of promise i gave to pual chang.. haha i din even go rehearsal and they strike me out of the ye lai xiang song.. hehe.. act "dua pai" .. bo bian.. i have stomach flu.. and worse thing is she is nt dere and i also dun haf solo song cannot dedicate to her.. WHY i so serious in dedication.. as many of the people who noe me, most of them noe i haf alot of gerfriend around.. so to make it clear to everyone dat she is the one ! ya i tink this is quite obvious when i mention her in my dedication - specially for her. I dun wan her to tink so much especially considering the fact dat i may not be serious or she will be insecure or wad.. however i tink she quite not very smart.. wun get it if i dun mention it to her.. well .. =(
have a fun nite at weeliang' hse.. ahha yah i was a big winner once again .. and i spend the nite helping her to do her spss thingy.. not only dat i wanna prove to her my love and also i wanna share her burden and bring colours into her life.. hais tmr presentation for marketing .. yawn boring day dunno wad the results will be like? hmms...
the origin.8:19 AM
Monday, August 07, 2006
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this song really express out my feelings for her.. why i choose her? this question pop into my mind at this very moment.. haha maybe just dat she is the only ger dat i feel so comfortable wif her company, ppl always feel my existance as a kinda of joking session.. bt who can gif provide me this ? only her.. and this is why i choose her.. sumtimes nt becoz of the beauty coz beauty wun last, not becoz of character as she can fake it out.. bt the chemistry and the moment when both of us come together .. i feel really beri light and happy wif her, but maybe she dun really get wad i mean nowaday and leave me in the lurch but i will still be holding on .. on this very tiring journey walking nearer and deeper into ur heart =)
the origin.7:45 AM
Friday, August 04, 2006
today is a happy nite for everyone in my grp of fren.. weejian - the first npidol in np history! .. i feel happy for him too.. everyone is happy bt sadly not for me - a man without his soul.. i knew it and tell one of my fren dat she definitely last min will cancel.. and rite i guess it correctly.. Seriously i am at my wits towards her.. Come on.. for wad i haf did i tink is really much enuff to win other gers' heart and the sincerity and time i put in. Fark it .. and fark myself.. for being a love saint.. wad believe time will prove everything? believe being true to her will gain sumthin.. omg i am really a fool man' She is like treating me like a bear, happy come and look for me and show me warmth, nt in the mood throw me into the dustbin.. nah i am just like a time subsitute for her, she gt time nth to do, ask me to chat wif her, wait for her do project.. and foolish i am to wait for her ytd from 11 - 3.45 am just to help her check her powerpoint and today become such like a zombie going to school for persentation. She really dunno how to appreciate, really DONT, sumtimes i really tink of giving up.. bt i shldn't take this love so lightly, i am a man, i shld learn to face defeat. bt i really treat her damn well, and nt as if i am damn ugly or wad ! arh.. 3 more days to go and i will fark myself up with i ................................
the origin.10:26 AM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
stupid national day celebration rehearsal in school !!! practice ye lai xiang for so long end up the music producer sae dun sae just becoz he wanna get the thing done asap! there are some fault wif the song and he just simply sae get over wif it and get the simplest way out.. !! and tell us dun sing .. farking waste of my time..!
Hais she seem to be colder to me when she noe i like her? is she playing hard to catch or she really dun like me and wanna avoid me? nahs.. if really i tink i will just go for another time.. no more the serious yihong anymore.. when i always serious wif her .. she play wif my feelings.. i gave my heart to her .. she treat me like dirt.. sometimes i really dunno wad to do.. i am much better den her ex.. treat her much better den her ex .. end up i get nth.? wad farking treat gers gd.. treat them wif all ur heart .. end up get is being treat like dirt by them! seriously speaking i dunno whether am i going for the wrong ger.. if yes god pls guide me along.. i will just make my last try.. if she bo chap den i will 4eva ignore her and no more! i wun see her anymore and i dun wish to triggle back my feelings.. i will just be back the "playful" me =X
the origin.8:39 AM
Name : Donavon - yIhOnG
School: Ngee Ann Poly
Age : 19
Dob : 7 Jan 1987
Wishes
Superstar
Love her
Be a better man
Improve in my singing
Do well in my fyp
Hates
Backstabber
Hyprocrite
Cheese
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